I just got a letter from South Seattle (my school) that said my grades from spring quarter were "not satisfactory" and I've been "placed on financial probation". Guess I was wrong about that A in the history class? I don't understand it, though....

Holy fucking shit! I can't believe I went from being on the Dean's list for winter to being on probabtion for spring. It's so... Shitty!!

As if I wasn't already contemplating not going back in the Fall (I'm taking summer off)but now I have to get a letter that basically says "you suck,loser." Yeah, that really gives me motivation to go back. Yeah, right.

Would someone please tell me why I even bother? I feel like I'm so far out of reach from my goals. Right now, they seem impossible. I know that they're not,and even if it takes me alot longer than I wanted, but I can do it, but it's how I feel.

I feel like a big loser. Maybe time will help, but right now, I'd like to go hide in a cave.

Stupid fucking school. Stupid fucking feeling like there's nothing good about me. Stupid fucking everything.

Trevor is one good thing in my life right now, and I am so gratefulto have him. I just wish I could spend more time with him.

Being a teenager sucks.

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