So.. I'm feeling a teensy bit insecure right now.Earlier today, I found out that Trevor likes another girl....yeah... uhm.. that hurts. But, at the same time, it's ok if he likes other people, as long as it doesn't take away from him loving me. But it does hurt...
OK, so let's start at the begining...At prom, Trevor danced with another girl, (who's name is Candace, but I'm going to refer to as Grrrr, so don't get confused) and I was upset about it but I let it go, because he's My boyfriend, and it's just one stupid dance. So Graduation rolls around, they take a picture together...Yeah, I didn't pay much attention to his grad pics, but to put comments on them and post them.
So yesterday I randomly look at his graduation pictures, and I noticed something I didn't before, and that I thought was interesting...His body language. So I was looking at these pics (unmarked ones) and kind of compared them.
So... what caught my attention?
In the picture with Grrr, Trevor's body is facing hers, and he's standing closer to/leaning into her. In the picture with me, I'm Leaning into him.In the picture with Grrr, he's got a broad, teeth-showing smile. In the picture with me, he's smirking. So my curiosity was piqued, and I decided to ask him if he likes Candace, and... yes, he does.
Yes, I'm feeling jealous. Yes, it hurts. But is that going to make me not want to be with him? Hell no. Yes I wonder what's going to happen. Do I think he's going to cheat on me? No. I trust him. But I am feeling insecure, but I'll get over it.
I guess at least one good thing comes from this: Now we know I'm good at reading and intrepreting body language.
Also, he and I talked on the phone today, and sure enough, I bitched him out and then I was fine again because I can't stay mad at him. It's not fair! But..we're OK again. Or at least whatever OK is for us. I still want him to call me more often, but maybe he'll eventually get it.
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