Last night, I was talking to Kira and Lesley online. Somehow, the subject of Trevor and his girlfriend (Charley) came up. Kira informs me that she has a friend that talked to Trevor and Trevor said something along the lines of (when he first started dating Charley) "He'd dump her in a second if he could have a change with you again." (Kira's words)

If you're like me, your first reaction was "WHAT!?!" Very appropriate response indeed. No matter how hard I thought about it, I could not puttwo and two together and get four. Trevor broke up with me, hates me, and has moved on, but he wants me back??

Well, the answer is (I'm assuming here), no. As I was walking home from 7-11 last night, a thought occured to me. Kira's friend said that to her, so perhaps she's the person in question. Trevor doesn't want me, he wants Kira! Which is good for me, Bad for Kira. And if it turns out I'm wrong, and he does want me, I'm going to be pissed. Let's just leave it at that.

Oh, and Lesley wants to mutilate Trevor. I believe his exact words were, "Can I kick him in the nuts with my steel toes?" Kira tends to agree that Trevor-mutilation would be a good idea. I don't agree. I don't want to hurt him...He's hurting himself enough.

So other news would be that Grandma and Diane came up for Thanksgiving. I only got to see them on Thanksgiving itself, instead of any other day they were here, which was relatively disappointing, but that's life. Thanksgiving was nice, despite the fact I had to wear a dress (Pink Dress I wore to Trevor's Grad), because I was instructed rather firmly to not dress like myself. (Though mom's words were "creepy goth girl". Ha, I'll show her creepy goth girl...!)

Lesley and I are getting closer, and I'm still dwindling in a phase of nit knowing what to do about him. Part of me wants to run as far and as fast as I can away from it, and part of me wants to say "fuck it" and embrace everything that's going on. At this current point, I'm going with the half that wants to embrace it, but I do keep wondering if I'm doing it for the right reasons... or just what the "right reasons" are...

I have more to say, but I need to go meet Dalisa. I'll finish later, probably with another entry.

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